Slice of my life.
I grew up in a catholic home and struggled with my identity
in Christ and with learning how to fully trust my creator. At first glance I
may seem like a normal teen, however, once I pull my hair back you notice the
thing that sets me apart: I wear Hearing Aids in both my ears. I was born with
a slight hearing lost caused by the disease CMV. By the time I was about to
start school the doctors at Texas Children’s Hospital told me that my hearing
was at the point where I would need a hearing aid as well as attend speech
therapy classes. However, this hearing lost was only in my left ear, my right
ear still had full hearing. I moved around a lot as a kid so I do not really
remember much about having to deal with my hearing loss then. When I was 9
years old my parents got a divorce and I moved to my 4th school. When I had
moved to this school everything changed for me. The bullying I had already
endured had gotten worse, yet the good thing about moving was that I was told I
didn’t need to keep going to speech therapy. At this school no one knew I had a
hearing aid because I never told anyone, my teachers were the only ones that
knew. My 5th grade year I made the decision to not wear my hearing aid because
I didn't want anyone to have another reason to bully me. So from 6th grade till
10th grade I didn’t wear it. During this time I acted as a normal hearing kid
when in fact I was not. My hearing then was at about a 50% hearing loss in my
left and full hearing in my right, so I didn't really have any problems hearing
people. 2 years after I removed my hearing aid I had started to discover who
Christ really is, and that I needed him as my Lord and Savior. So when I was 12
years old I gave my life to Christ and became a Christian. Yet, I still didn’t
put my full faith and trust in Him. It wasn’t till the end of 10th grade I
started discovering what Christ called me. It was then that I started seeing my
hearing loss as a blessing rather than a curse. The new church I had started
going to started showing me who Christ really is and showered me in Christ’s
love. I saw that Christ called me his child and that I was created in HIS image
and that I didn’t need to hide who I was from everyone. Along with that my ASL
teacher began teaching me all about these different advantages to being Hard of
Hearing. So I put the now 10 year old hearing aid back in my ear and began
letting people know that I had a Hearing Disability. That’s when I started
realizing that the kids that always bullied me had no authority over who I was.
God created me this way for a reason and I should not have let those kids put me down.
Because of these realizations I was able to help a friend of mine start a
Anti-bully club at our school that allowed me to speak to students about what I
had gone through as a child. Fast forward to the summer before my senior year,
and that's when things drastically changed. I had gone on a mission trip with
my youth group and by the end of the week I started noticing a buzzing sound in
my right ear. Not long after that I noticed that I couldn't hear my alarm in
the morning and the TV was having to be turned up even louder than before. The
doctors couldn’t identify it but they did say that my hearing in both ears was
now at a severe to profound hearing loss. Basically I can’t hear without my
hearing aids. I didn't find out what was causing the buzzing until I met some
Deaf people as I was going through some things with the state. I found out that
I had a disease called Tinnitus in my right ear. Even though there is no cure
for tinnitus, and my hearing is to the point I have to wear my hearing aids if
I want to know what is going on around me, I have learned to accept it. I have
accepted that my hearing loss was for a reason. God knows what he was doing.
Because I have accepted this truth I have discovered my spiritual gifts that
God has given me. I now can speak to others who are dealing with disabilities
or with identity problems and encourage them though my story. I can say proudly
that I know who I am in Christ because of my loss. I’m not saying it has been
easy, because it has not been, but it has been worth it. Lastly, one really big
blessing about finally showing who I am is that I am able to attend college with
my tuition being paid for by the state, other wise I would not be attending Texas State University. So with
that I encourage you to really seek Christ and begin to accept who he made you
as. That is my slice of life J.
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